I'm trying my best to do online research of TEFL. I think this seriously is just one of those things where one has to jump in, head first, and just do it! If I had the money for a ticket already saved up, and I wasn't worried about my medication siutation, I would right this moment! Japan's siren call has intensivied in the wake of the earthquake and tsunami. I may be fragile, but there are plenty of things I can still do.
All together my friends and I managed to save up around 300$ for donations. Granted, that isn't much more than a drop in the bucket but we're all broke college grads. We do what we can! I plan on doing some more donations myself this month to red cross. I know alot of their money goes to overhead costs, but they are one of the first groups that get into emergency situations.
The title of my post today has more to do with how I feel here in the States rather than my worry about fitting into a niche in JP.I have always been on the "outside" as in--I was the smart girl that other students copied off of, the artist, the writer (getting published in 5th grade really doesn't help your ability to blend into the background as a kid), the weirdo, etc. I mean, I have been writing poetry since 2nd grade. I love the English language, and that should give you an idea of how much. ^ ^
Many people don't like the feeling of being on the fringes and of course, there are others who absolutely relish it. I fall somewhere in the middle. I think that being someone who doesn't ever quite fit in allows me to have a unique perspective... but I think there are certain things I miss out on. I'd love to be able to crowd around with a bunch of girl pals and squeal over guys while snarfing on icecream or some other really putridly sweet thing! Bonding! Makeup! PINK! err.. sort of.
It's this whole concept of "belonging" that is engrained into my generation--generation X, while still remaining aloof from societal norms yet still belonging while being an individual that is part of the crowd that.. Ugh what fanciful horse manure!
Every person, no matter how mundane, is an individual. I don't care if you're a freakin TWIN! Every person is complete in and of themselves. However, learning to play well with others (or at least not to bite random people in public) is part of growing up to be semi-well adjusted. Otherwise, I know a great leather shop that can give you a discount on a muzzle.
Anyway! What does all this have to do with TEFL? Well, I wonder how one fits in while being an outsider in a country where one may or may not speak the language while working to teach English. You are most obviously an outsider, probably one quite appreciative of the local culture, and yet.. you are trying to fit into a certain "mold" so that you can teach the kids/adults what they need to learn. Obviously you are different... but not so different that you can't be accepted into a role of authority.
From a psychological standpoint, that last bit is what interests me. Japanese culture is so insular, I wonder how this process happens. I really should beef up on a few of my old psych books sometime soon. I know I plan on writing a novel about my experiences for the time I'm over there. That's my ulterior motive. That as well as brushing up on my Asian poetry forms.
Target: 5k USD
Current: 30.00 USD
Long way to go.