Depressing

Right my last post was full of hope but unfortunately I never got the job which actually wasn't a surprise as I know I messed up the phone interview, but I am learning from all of this. I am taking some Japanese lessons on sunday at the local library 10 am till 11:30 for 100 yen I believe an absolute bargain although I don't know about the quality just yet hehe. I recently applied for Gaba to work in the Omiya LS I recieved an email about phone interview so took the offered option of calling as soon as I was able but unfortunately again the position was filled and I can't go further afield as it would cost too much, Gaba doesn't cover transport and isn't the highest paid so little limited. However the kind lady on the phone did tell me to check again on the 19th when it's updated and reapply apparently she put notes on my file ? lol oh well hopefully something even part time at Omiya would be great to start earning and gaining experience. I can't help but feel the longer I go without working the more English I forget and the less confident you feel about doing it. Apart from that I may consider trying private lessons even though the wife is a little negative on this one.